And then I realize my newest emotion: I am angry!
I, am terrified. I am not ready. I am young.
I am in the middle of stuff. I have projects yet to finish. I have a busy mind - but a very, very tired heart.
Some days I feel normal - like I'm able to finish projects, go to work, teach, enjoy people's company and life itself, and then there are days I can't get out of bed - and it's not even depression's fault, it's my body.
It's not my body that's betraying me, it's my mind.